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Where They Last Saw Her

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NATIONAL BESTSELLER • From the award-winning author of the Cash Blackbear series comes a compelling novel of a Native American woman who learns of the disappearance of one of her own and decides enough is enough.

A WASHINGTON POST AND BOOK RIOT BEST BOOK OF THE YEAR


All they heard was her scream.

Quill has lived on the Red Pine reservation in Minnesota her whole life. She knows what happens to women who look like her. Just a girl when Jimmy Sky jumped off the railway bridge and she ran for help, Quill realizes now that she’s never stopped running. As she trains for the Boston Marathon early one morning in the woods, she hears a scream. When she returns to search the area, all she finds are tire tracks and a single beaded earring.

Things are different now for Quill than when she was a lonely girl. Her friends Punk and Gaylyn are two women who don’t know what it means to quit; her loving husband, Crow, and their two beautiful children challenge her to be better every day. So when she hears a second woman has been stolen, she is determined to do something about it—starting with investigating the group of men working the pipeline construction just north of their homes.

As Quill closes in on the truth about the missing women, someone else disappears. In her quest to find justice for all of the women of the reservation, she is confronted with the hard truths of their home and the people who purport to serve them. When will she stop losing neighbors, friends, family? As Quill puts everything on the line to make a difference, the novel asks searing questions about bystander culture, the reverberations of even one act of crime, and the long-lasting trauma of being considered invisible.
Chapter One

Quill ran the snow-covered trail. In her right hand she carried bear spray and in the left she carried a long stick to ward off the rez dogs that often ran in wild packs. Her breath formed frozen clouds of white air that drifted back over her shoulder. Winter brought its own deep silence to the woods. Dead leaves from the poplar trees and dropped twigs sodden with fall moisture were frozen under the recent snowfall. They didn’t crackle and crunch under her running shoes. While the pines were still lush, the deciduous trees had no foliage to rustle. The winter-dead underbrush, bare of leaves, made it possible to see a hundred yards in either direction. The winter forest wasn’t as dark and lonely as the summer forest could be.

Quill had run Duluth’s 26.2-mile Grandma’s Marathon the previous June, and after that run she had become determined to train every day all year round to prepare for the Boston Marathon, if not this year, then the next.

Out of the corner of her eye Quill spied a rabbit, rusty brown in color, sitting not three feet off the trail. A cottontail. The cottontail stared without blinking or twitching a nose or ear—its survival instinct. Quill kept running. She saw a horned owl sleeping in a tree. Surrounded by forest, the bird’s natural habitat, Quill mainly ignored the superstitious fear of owls—the fear that said hearing or seeing one meant death. A lone sparrow quietly hopped from one tree branch to another. Quill ran. Breath in. Breath out. Acutely aware of the life in the trees around her, hitting her stride where she barely felt her feet touch the ground.

Deep in a meditative runner’s trance, Quill instinctively dropped to her knees and swiveled around, looking in wideeyed terror in all directions, as a high-pitched scream pierced the air. The scream did not repeat. Quill crab-walked to a large jack pine and sat on the cold ground, her back on the tree, pepper spray and stick ready to attack. Why did you wear the neon-pink running suit, fool? she thought as she scanned the forest around her, noticing that both pink knees were dirty from the forest floor. She slid around the tree and scanned the forest in all directions. The forest was even more silent than it had been. Every living creature and plant went to hush with that scream. It was a woman’s scream; I swear to god.

When the scream didn’t repeat, Quill scooted around to the trail side of the tree and quickly scanned up and down the trail. No one else was on it. Quill crouched, keeping her back to the tree trunk. Nothing moved in any direction. She pulled her winter cap off, tilted her head as if that would help her right ear hear better. She was sure the scream came from the right because when she dropped to the ground, she instinctively turned to the right first.

Quill felt a chill down her back. The chill that happens when folks say, Someone walked over my grave. She checked her watch. When she’d decided to train for the Boston Marathon, she’d splurged and bought herself a running watch. Her friends teased her about being bougie and getting a “white runner’s” watch. But it told her the time, with a GPS system, heart and oxygen status, and music, and told her how many miles she ran. Now it told her her heart was beating way above normal at two-fifteen in the afternoon and that she was three miles into the woods, which meant three miles back to the gravel road everyone called Cemetery Road, where her car sat. And another fifteen miles of reservation road to get back home. She glanced in all directions, cautiously took her time to raise herself to a full standing position, and took off running to her car.
“Mystery writer Rendon, a citizen of the White Earth Nation, creates a compelling, take-charge heroine who is based on the women raising awareness about disproportionately high rates of missing and murdered Indigenous people.”The Washington Post

“Rendon’s book will break your heart, but it will also inspire and inform.”Kirkus Review, starred review

“Rendon masterfully navigates the histories of trauma and brutality that continue to exist within our Native communities, laying bare the truths of colonial violence and the continuing need for closure and justice in our homelands.”—Ramona Emerson, author of Shutter

“An expert and uncompromising storyteller, Marcie Rendon aims her extraordinary powers on a no-holds barred story that will devastate and enrage you—and renew your belief in the power of community and the strength in women’s hearts. Where They Last Saw Her is unmissable.”—Katie Gutierrez, bestselling author of More Than You’ll Ever Know

“Marcie Rendon has penned another captivating novel, a bold and necessary story about the inescapable ties between land and blood and community. It cries for justice and sings for peace at once.”—Oscar Hokeah, author of Calling for a Blanket Dance

“Rendon has delivered a top-shelf crime story that doubles as a moving testament to Native American resilience.”Publishers Weekly, starred review
 
“A stunning thriller with great characterization and propulsive plot, built around a current, terrifying reality.”Booklist, starred review
© Jaida Grey Eagle
Marcie R. Rendon, citizen of the White Earth Nation, is one of O: The Oprah Magazine’s 31 Native American Authors to Read Right Now and a McKnight Distinguished Artist Award winner. Her debut novel, Murder on the Red River, received the Pinckley Prize for Debut Novel Award and was a finalist for the Western Writers of America Spur Award, Contemporary Novel category, and her second novel, Girl Gone Missing, was nominated for the G. P. Putnam’s Sons Sue Grafton Memorial Award. Her script, Say Their Names, will be produced by Out of Hand Theater in Atlanta, Georgia. And her script Sweet Revenge had a staged reading at the Playwrights’ Center in Minneapolis, Minnesota. The creative mind of Raving Native Theater, she curated Twin Cities Public Television’s Art Is . . . CreativeNativeResilience. Rendon received the Loft Literary Center’s Spoken Word Immersion Fellowship with co-creator Diego Vazquez for their work with incarcerated women. View titles by Marcie R. Rendon

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NATIONAL BESTSELLER • From the award-winning author of the Cash Blackbear series comes a compelling novel of a Native American woman who learns of the disappearance of one of her own and decides enough is enough.

A WASHINGTON POST AND BOOK RIOT BEST BOOK OF THE YEAR


All they heard was her scream.

Quill has lived on the Red Pine reservation in Minnesota her whole life. She knows what happens to women who look like her. Just a girl when Jimmy Sky jumped off the railway bridge and she ran for help, Quill realizes now that she’s never stopped running. As she trains for the Boston Marathon early one morning in the woods, she hears a scream. When she returns to search the area, all she finds are tire tracks and a single beaded earring.

Things are different now for Quill than when she was a lonely girl. Her friends Punk and Gaylyn are two women who don’t know what it means to quit; her loving husband, Crow, and their two beautiful children challenge her to be better every day. So when she hears a second woman has been stolen, she is determined to do something about it—starting with investigating the group of men working the pipeline construction just north of their homes.

As Quill closes in on the truth about the missing women, someone else disappears. In her quest to find justice for all of the women of the reservation, she is confronted with the hard truths of their home and the people who purport to serve them. When will she stop losing neighbors, friends, family? As Quill puts everything on the line to make a difference, the novel asks searing questions about bystander culture, the reverberations of even one act of crime, and the long-lasting trauma of being considered invisible.

Excerpt

Chapter One

Quill ran the snow-covered trail. In her right hand she carried bear spray and in the left she carried a long stick to ward off the rez dogs that often ran in wild packs. Her breath formed frozen clouds of white air that drifted back over her shoulder. Winter brought its own deep silence to the woods. Dead leaves from the poplar trees and dropped twigs sodden with fall moisture were frozen under the recent snowfall. They didn’t crackle and crunch under her running shoes. While the pines were still lush, the deciduous trees had no foliage to rustle. The winter-dead underbrush, bare of leaves, made it possible to see a hundred yards in either direction. The winter forest wasn’t as dark and lonely as the summer forest could be.

Quill had run Duluth’s 26.2-mile Grandma’s Marathon the previous June, and after that run she had become determined to train every day all year round to prepare for the Boston Marathon, if not this year, then the next.

Out of the corner of her eye Quill spied a rabbit, rusty brown in color, sitting not three feet off the trail. A cottontail. The cottontail stared without blinking or twitching a nose or ear—its survival instinct. Quill kept running. She saw a horned owl sleeping in a tree. Surrounded by forest, the bird’s natural habitat, Quill mainly ignored the superstitious fear of owls—the fear that said hearing or seeing one meant death. A lone sparrow quietly hopped from one tree branch to another. Quill ran. Breath in. Breath out. Acutely aware of the life in the trees around her, hitting her stride where she barely felt her feet touch the ground.

Deep in a meditative runner’s trance, Quill instinctively dropped to her knees and swiveled around, looking in wideeyed terror in all directions, as a high-pitched scream pierced the air. The scream did not repeat. Quill crab-walked to a large jack pine and sat on the cold ground, her back on the tree, pepper spray and stick ready to attack. Why did you wear the neon-pink running suit, fool? she thought as she scanned the forest around her, noticing that both pink knees were dirty from the forest floor. She slid around the tree and scanned the forest in all directions. The forest was even more silent than it had been. Every living creature and plant went to hush with that scream. It was a woman’s scream; I swear to god.

When the scream didn’t repeat, Quill scooted around to the trail side of the tree and quickly scanned up and down the trail. No one else was on it. Quill crouched, keeping her back to the tree trunk. Nothing moved in any direction. She pulled her winter cap off, tilted her head as if that would help her right ear hear better. She was sure the scream came from the right because when she dropped to the ground, she instinctively turned to the right first.

Quill felt a chill down her back. The chill that happens when folks say, Someone walked over my grave. She checked her watch. When she’d decided to train for the Boston Marathon, she’d splurged and bought herself a running watch. Her friends teased her about being bougie and getting a “white runner’s” watch. But it told her the time, with a GPS system, heart and oxygen status, and music, and told her how many miles she ran. Now it told her her heart was beating way above normal at two-fifteen in the afternoon and that she was three miles into the woods, which meant three miles back to the gravel road everyone called Cemetery Road, where her car sat. And another fifteen miles of reservation road to get back home. She glanced in all directions, cautiously took her time to raise herself to a full standing position, and took off running to her car.

Reviews

“Mystery writer Rendon, a citizen of the White Earth Nation, creates a compelling, take-charge heroine who is based on the women raising awareness about disproportionately high rates of missing and murdered Indigenous people.”The Washington Post

“Rendon’s book will break your heart, but it will also inspire and inform.”Kirkus Review, starred review

“Rendon masterfully navigates the histories of trauma and brutality that continue to exist within our Native communities, laying bare the truths of colonial violence and the continuing need for closure and justice in our homelands.”—Ramona Emerson, author of Shutter

“An expert and uncompromising storyteller, Marcie Rendon aims her extraordinary powers on a no-holds barred story that will devastate and enrage you—and renew your belief in the power of community and the strength in women’s hearts. Where They Last Saw Her is unmissable.”—Katie Gutierrez, bestselling author of More Than You’ll Ever Know

“Marcie Rendon has penned another captivating novel, a bold and necessary story about the inescapable ties between land and blood and community. It cries for justice and sings for peace at once.”—Oscar Hokeah, author of Calling for a Blanket Dance

“Rendon has delivered a top-shelf crime story that doubles as a moving testament to Native American resilience.”Publishers Weekly, starred review
 
“A stunning thriller with great characterization and propulsive plot, built around a current, terrifying reality.”Booklist, starred review

Author

© Jaida Grey Eagle
Marcie R. Rendon, citizen of the White Earth Nation, is one of O: The Oprah Magazine’s 31 Native American Authors to Read Right Now and a McKnight Distinguished Artist Award winner. Her debut novel, Murder on the Red River, received the Pinckley Prize for Debut Novel Award and was a finalist for the Western Writers of America Spur Award, Contemporary Novel category, and her second novel, Girl Gone Missing, was nominated for the G. P. Putnam’s Sons Sue Grafton Memorial Award. Her script, Say Their Names, will be produced by Out of Hand Theater in Atlanta, Georgia. And her script Sweet Revenge had a staged reading at the Playwrights’ Center in Minneapolis, Minnesota. The creative mind of Raving Native Theater, she curated Twin Cities Public Television’s Art Is . . . CreativeNativeResilience. Rendon received the Loft Literary Center’s Spoken Word Immersion Fellowship with co-creator Diego Vazquez for their work with incarcerated women. View titles by Marcie R. Rendon